“The mystical energy that we can tap as an inner source is both male and female. The integration process takes some time. If we connect prematurely with a human source for our female or male energy, we block the universal supply.”
Are aspects of energy really male or female and if so what does that mean? How did we all, as a collective, agree on some aspects of life and consequently energy being masculine and others feminine? There has to be an unconscious (or conscious) agreement that not only abstract forms, but gross forms too, often have masculine and feminine qualities.
My car – she’s a beauty; my guitar is one dark & brooding guy, even a house can have masculine and feminine connotations for people. All aspects of nature – food, trees, flowers, earth, wind, fire have masculine and feminine forms and energy. The Shiva-Shakti concept in Indian spirituality – where the supreme spirit is a beautiful fusion of Shiva the purusha (male) and Shakti (female) the source of his emotional, intellectual and physical strength. These two together supplement rather than complement each other.
Joseph Campbell also observed this in one of his books – the reason why finding love is approached in different ways in the East and West. Wherein western mythology believes that the masculine and feminine were created by ‘God’ by dividing a whole into its two halves. They believe that the reason there is so much restlessness in man (and woman) is because they feel that they are one half of a perfect whole and will never find true happiness until they find their ‘other half’ and merge in blissful union.
Eastern mythology suggests that masculine and feminine are fully contained in the ‘whole’ and the ‘whole’ in fact multiplied into 2 complete wholes and one energy got more pronounced than the other in each. The reason, then, of union with another is not to find ‘completion’ in another, but simply resonance and recognition of the dormant energy in one’s own self.
The attraction with R for me is my proof of this process…where our masculine and feminine energy seemed to be amplified by their resonance and reflection in each other.
So, perhaps, I need to take that as the gift from this whole experience, and understand that the ‘reason’ that I’ve been searching for, for why all of this happened – again – was simply this:
To allow myself to affirm that what I was seeking without is already within me.