Thursday, September 28, 2006

Late Night Tales

“Once you become conscious of the questions active in the moment, you get some kind of intuitive direction of what to do, of where to go.”

A combination of jet lag, emotional confusion and general dissonance with the ‘way things were’ led me to fall into a strange spell yesterday afternoon while listening to Air – Late Night Tales (amazing by the way – highly recommended).

I saw everything unfold in consciousness – thoughts emerging, reactions to thoughts developing sometimes fully, sometimes dissolving under their own weight, emotions permeating through my body causing all sorts of chemical reactions which I could then label fear and pain and wonder and dread.

I felt the music all around me and within me and saw the energy flowing and floating in this consciousness. This whole interplay of consciousness with its own self created energy forms and structures – of my body and my thoughts and my emotions was all that Life was about. I could put a label to it – My Life – and own the resulting body and thoughts and emotions and make a complex story out of it. One with problems to be solved and rewards to be reaped.

Or I could simply let consciousness do its thing, play its play, think its thoughts, feel its feeling and enjoy the process of Life.

The conscious choice of living ‘My Life’ or simply ‘Life’ would then lead to different life experiences:: the former resulting in a roller coaster ride of Need and Control and the latter one of Even Flow.

I don’t know what the intuitive direction for answers to my questions are … but, at this moment, I’m not sweating over it.