Thursday, October 26, 2006

Total Revolution

This integral approach towards living life is what I see now as the key to total happiness. What is total happiness then? Is it a type of fulfillment that only comes about when one is completely stimulated, internally and externally? Is it the process by which every moment of every day is full and fulfilled because it is being experienced to the maximum? Is that, and then the balance between mind, body, heart and spirit, what make life a holistic whole?

What is the reason that we want such complete happiness? And what is the human conditioning that repeatedly makes access to such total happiness both desirable and fearful?

This equal fascination with self sabotage and self-improvement – both equally powerful and appealing at one level, and ridiculous and distasteful at another. This struggle and need to be the Perfect Man.

What is a Perfect Man? I’m reading Arrow of a Blue Skinned God these days – the modern rendition of Ramayana – as seen by a westerner traveling through India. Was Rama really the perfect man then? Because of his courage, fortitude, sensitivity, equanimity, honesty, compassion and dynamism? What would it take to really embody these qualities in today’s world? Is such an outlook to life really possible anymore? Or are we doomed to a life of self-absorption and angst? I don’t know. I can’t really tell anymore.

But what if it was possible to be this perfect man with minimum effort and maximum effect? What if I could, indeed, have all of it but not need any of it? And be this person who has the courage and equanimity and fortitude to have it all and take it all but not need any of it – at all? Is this the meaning of perfection then? Is this the way to be when all that I see and all that I do and all that I am is simply an effortless way of engaging Life? Engaging everyone and everything in life. Without need and want nor hope nor yearning. Simply in, and as, an effortless whole.

That then, perhaps, is total integration – when there is absolutely no need to be different and unique and separate. When my individuality comes not from the capriciousness of my Ego, but because it is a unique expression of the divine unifying Spirit.

Can I do that? Can I be that? Will I ever live like that?