So, despite all the ‘goodness’ how does one make sense of all of this? How is it that I can be a part of it – living life as fully as I possibly can and still feel ‘stuck in it’? Like there is an emotional swamp I can’t seem to escape out of? I find myself wishing for things that will probably never happen and are probably not happening for a good reason. But still, I insist on focusing on them, perceived slights, avoidances and the inevitable feelings of jealousy and being misunderstood. How do I make sense out of all of this then? How do people feel when they have lose someone from their lives without finding any closure?